tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-52386693646692574522024-02-08T02:58:09.355-08:00I always get what I wantHayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.comBlogger51125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-61683542357806425072009-06-11T05:13:00.000-07:002009-06-11T05:15:56.443-07:00appologies for a long break!Well here I am again, got a bit snowed under by uni work and start of placement - went right off the rails ww wise too! but I was happy i only <strong>GAINED 1 POUND,</strong> pretty cool really, still 1 stone down and I am back on it with full force today, I just need to stick to it now LOL. just a short post just ot get me back into the swing of it, will post later on whatever is going on in my life. YAY GO ME!Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-85675080094019995572009-05-25T05:25:00.000-07:002009-05-25T05:32:17.303-07:00hehe mondaywell I am still on this ww lark, had a sneaky peek this morning and I had put on another 2 pounds! I mean OMG<br />Its actually spurred me more on, there is no way I am going to fall below a stone loss, but I now need to get my head round getting to 1 and half stones loss, because I am really not progessing very well.<br />I'm actually surprised I am still here trying though, I would have given up a long time ago normally and I have been sitting at a stone loss for like weeks, even though I am struggling I really want to lose this weight. I dont get why I just mess it up at the end of the day/week, i do so well for so long then bang I have a bad moment or 10. <br />So I need to start back at basics and get back into this full on, I know a key point is lack of the gym , but i also know I just wont go once i start placements, I just dont know what to do. I have a wii fit here which I havent used for a while, I also have the ea games game for the wii waiting at a parcel depot which I cant get until tuesday, maybe I will start a challenge for myself, or maybe I should open it up to others? but one way or another i need to get back into exercising and sticking to my points!Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-6315532711367378262009-05-24T06:50:00.000-07:002009-05-24T06:59:38.151-07:00late weigh in report post week 10well this week I<span style="font-size:130%;"><strong> GAINED 2 POUNDS</strong>, </span><span style="font-size:100%;">It was a well deserved and expected gain! and also had a bit of totm thrown in too. I've had a weekend of packed activities too, and eating out so decided to restart on ww today (sunday), so here I am still struggling, but still one stone down!, I feel kinda pleased that I havent actually gone to less than a stone so far great maintaining but not much loss lol. I also know I have the ea sports disk sitting in a parcel depot waiting for me to go get it and I cant get it until tuesday its very frustrating LOL I want to have a go on it. but I had a very quick go on my mates yesterday and OMG It was like 5 mins literally and my legs are killing me LOL I am going to be crawling about when I get mine, but cant wait. </span><br />well should have found out about my placement on friday, but in true hayley style it had to mess up and I got a to be confirmed message instead, I am guessing the placement hasnt got back to them yet, and Im also guessing its not going to go as smoothly as I wanted, I hope the placement does though! wish me luck for this week and weight loss and placement!Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-68099833911183603522009-05-19T06:59:00.000-07:002009-05-19T07:05:01.962-07:00its tuesday!well feeling ALOT better every day, and even its totm and I have been urmm sneaky peeking daily, and atm its showing a 2 pound gain, I know its cos of totm though, so Ill expect it on thursday, and ti doesnt seem to be affecting me at all.<br />Well had an odd week have been struggling a little bit at the start of the ww week, but have been trying to keep to my points LOL - I know my mood is much better now im towards the end of the week and can feel my mojo returning slowly. I actually think the community project did affect me more than i thought, Ill blog mroe on it later!<br />I am still committed to losing this weight its taking a long time LOL, but its a heathy weight loss overall so far. I think im in my 10th week and lost 16.5 pounds so far so about 1.5 loss a week on average, so not bad least its going down and not up lol. Well might be a miracle this week and I might lose, but for now Ill expect a gain or a sts at best purely because me and totm really dont get on weight wise.Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-43492053566905973772009-05-16T05:58:00.000-07:002009-05-16T06:01:22.777-07:00its saturday!well today I feel much more positive about life, I have decided thatI am not a loser any more, I am a winner now. I am finding it hard to stick to my points but I am doing it. I am just taking one day at a time and hope that this week I can do the whole week with no blips lol. I got myfitness coach yesterday so going to have a go on it later as well. All in all an ok day, have to be a bit organised for next week cos we ar ein uni all week. just a hsor tpost got a fair bit to fo, just wanted to write how positive i felt and that I wont give up on me.Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-25346002814695282062009-05-15T01:05:00.000-07:002009-05-15T01:16:29.767-07:00well another weekI decded to have yesterday off from ww it was quite nice to just not have to think about it for a day. But today i am back on it and off i go. I feel kinda mad at myself I seem to be falling into a depressive state, im getting headaches again and feeling stressed...this is also impacting how i am seeing myself. I know i need to nip it in the bud now so going to go back to the doctors yet again. <br />I have decided though as from today I am worth this and I will do this, I keep pussy fotting around and yes I am losing weight but atm I just feel so down I can take it in. I should be shouting from the roof tops that i have lost 16.5 pounds, so why arent i? instead im sitting here most days in tears thinking how much of a loser i am...so time to get positive and get back on the happy bus. Im off out today with a mate then shopping later so today is my first day of thinking positive! I think one of the reasons I feel so down is that stupid placement, it was rubbish, and the whole presentation was rubbish too. no ones fault just we werent that good at it I am hoping with practice it will get better :) but for now i need to move my head away from that and onwards...never look back as they say!Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-76758549683669183282009-05-14T03:00:00.000-07:002009-05-14T03:09:34.516-07:00weigh in week 9well I lost another <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">2 pounds</span></strong>, I start off the week cool, then come monday/tuesday it all goes to pot. <br />I've had a bad week, I just seem to sit here crying most of the time lately and sounding all emo. I feel my presentation went very badly, everyone else's was so organised and cool, then we were just so rubbish, the dvd was poor, the work we presented was poor. everyone keeps saying dont be silly you might be surprised with your grade, its not helping everybody,<br /><div align="center"><strong>I KNOW it was rubbish!</strong> </div>I just keep thinking I have failed the whole placement, I have no idea what happens if that is true but will mean 7 weeks of work down the drain.<br />I just feel such a loser all the time, im fat im 20 stone im ugly, and im crap at presenting and I cant even stick to my ww for a week. I am usualy such a happy go lucky person, I am contemplating giving up the course cos I really am crap at presentations and this course is full of them, this course is just making me so down and like a loser its unbelievable. im sorting out my sons room right now, mulling over things I guess there is some fight in me, I might try and get a book on improving how to present. i will have a look later. anyway back to cleaning the room.Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-41189155191411534152009-05-09T01:53:00.000-07:002009-05-09T02:01:44.815-07:00saturdaywell today I feel a bit better, I am leaving myself in the DVD mainly because a girl has worked hard on it, and it flows better for the presentation. <br />I have learn though that this is something I will probably not do ever again, well not while I am this size anyway. I am the sort of person who will run from cameras, so to do a dvd was a big thing for me. I do just look hideous, one of the nicer girls said "I think we wore the wrong things" I know she was being polite, she meant you wore the wrong thing. I am so mad about one of the girls, she is very slim and moaning that she looks pregnant! Your know this girl is like a size 12 she had a tinsy winsy bit of belly and I just thought BEEEP you. To top it all she is desperate to get hold of this dvd and I know it isnt for a good reason, why on earth would she want a copy after the presentation has been made? hmm stinks of taking the piss of us with her mates. Maybe I am being paranoid but just little bits of body language I pick up from her.<br />Well I am still on ww, still sticking to it each day I am aware that I could get down and start to eat, so today I am going to get in tons of nice things that are low points, and steer away from anything that can ruin a diet. I might pop to asda for a change and see what they have going I know when I do go they tend to have alot of ww friendly items for us. So heres to hoping I am still ok on thursday, got a few obsticles to get over during the week, the main one being the group wants to go out for a closure meal, I will see what they all suggest and decide form there if I want to go, but I think a ncie carvery would be lovely.Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-63781368176271155822009-05-08T12:33:00.001-07:002009-05-08T12:54:19.853-07:00I got to thinking todayBit dangerous I know me thinking, Ive been doing this ww for 8 weeks now, and I have struggled big time since I was ill. However you know what ......I am still here, still trying to lose this weight!!!! that is a big thing for me, I am still committed to getting thin and havent given up on myself yet and i dont think I will. Fantastic mind set change, as before I'd have been gone by now and given up for sure!<br /><br /> Yes at the moment i feel so low about how I look, seeing myself on dvd just shows me how I look to the world really, it smacked me right in the face what a mess I look. I wonder how I let myself get to this stage, and probably other people are thinking that too!<br /><br />I am going to lose this weight and I so want to be thin, right now a stone seems a small drop in a big ocean for me, I should celebrate my loss but to be honest its not made any difference yet to anything, my clothes arent any looser yet and I am still hideous looking, but one thing I do know is that when I do lose more it will show. I just have to be patient its just hard to be sometimes. I hope that I will see the losses as good in times to come - I figure I have to lose about 11 stone to be in my healthy range, you that is actually more than I want to weigh at the end, I am twice the size I should be, its just daunting when you think of it that way. For now though I am aiming for 12 stone, my problem is I know all the talk about breaking up into smaller goals, however I get to my smaller goal and thats it ive done my goal my head things done it thats it and I find it hard to refocus on another goal and I give up, so now my mindset is I cant stop till I get to 12 stone. Simple no matter what I wont stop until I hit 12 stone.<br />I just have to make sure I stick to it, easier said then done, the boys are eating me out of house and home and I am losing money quick on a student bursary, I am going to have to cut back on everything big time. Plus side is I prob will only be able to afford 3 meals a day and fruit inbetween, already had a chat with the boys about food consumption - because they just graze constantly and everything is gone within a day or two, frustrating when it comes to making their lunches. So now I have told them when its gone its gone one shop a week and thats it.<br />so here I am, I would love in 3 years to be able to make a new video as was suggested on the ww site and have me as a slim size 16 generally healthy and feeling much better about myself.Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-5176729117882666462009-05-06T23:51:00.000-07:002009-05-06T23:57:03.189-07:00weigh in week 8well had a bit of a tiswas yesterday, and I havebeen going off the rails. Was crying everything was going wrong, I looked hideous in the dvd and HATE IT! I mean literally hate it and I want to ditch the thing, so going to talk to my fellow team mates today about me not being in it and presenting verbally.<br />Well anyway woke up weighed myself and I lost <span style="font-size:180%;">2.5 pounds. </span><span style="font-size:100%;">I am now at my 1 stone loss, somehow I thought I would feel much more happy cos I wanted to get to it, but all I feel is its such a fluke I went off the rails for like 3 days. Anyway I will try my best to keep on this ww lark for another week, I think I will be struggling day to day really, Im so fed up and I know I should be patient but just hate the way I look so much it sends me into a spiral of depression, the dvd really didnt help me at all! I need to break this stupid mind set and realise i am doing something about it now and crak on with it, Its silly but Im depressed cos im so fat and ugly and want to be thin so I eat more! wtf is that about? oh well going to have to get ready for uni now I will ponder this thought today.</span>Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-11189520884985061582009-05-02T00:20:00.000-07:002009-05-02T00:31:39.647-07:00hey everyone its saturday!haha ok feeling in a good mood today, <span style="font-size:130%;"><strong>and still on ww wooooot</strong></span>! pretty proud of myself getting back into it and not giving up which I thought had happened! ...I hope I will be bale to stick to it for a while to come. I so want my first stone loss this week that would be so awesome! I have to admit I have been sneaky peeking ...bit naughty I know, but since its the same scales that I weigh in anyway (cos im one of those online people) it doesnt really give me a false reading, LOL urmm oh well ....<br />today we are shooitng our dvd for the presentation, I might not of mentioned this so a bit of background info. I am a student nurse and for my first placement we begrudgingly had to do a community profile project, hard to explain but basically we had to wander about an area and find out what health services are available for the area then chose a specific group in that area and find out how these services can help them. So we like daft gits chose travellers. We didnt feel like presenting our findings in the normal way we wanted to do something a bit differnt, so we are doing a dvd of sorts, so that is where we are now at the dvd making day. Im very nervous, not sure why rofl and im a little bit excited :D <br />I just hope my work is right and we get a good grade cos I have put in alot of time on this project and would literally cry if i got an F cos id done the wrong bit so will keep you informed on all that stuff. <br />Still not got the gym yet and I havent been on wwi fit for a while either, I really need to get back into it and start to do some exercise somewhere, mind you lately with walking about our target area I have got that exercise going for me. well off to get ready and update later on in the week!Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-21332970456542281672009-04-30T12:49:00.000-07:002009-04-30T12:56:22.692-07:00in the pinkYeah ok I change my blog colours alot, I kinda like pink atm very girly and oh boy I need girly in my life LOL. well so far so good, on day 1 of back on track, I have stuck within my points got tons of extra yummy low fat stuff in the house!!!. It makes it so much easier when you have the right foods and nice yummy stuff too. Right now i am eating a massive bowl of strawberries and 0 point jelly all for 0.5 points! still have 4 points left for the day too! but im kinda at my stuffed limit now but see how it goes later, im a night owl so might get peckish later on.<br />Well didnt get to the gym today after all I really do need to make an effort with my exercise, maybe I will just stick with wii fit for a while, I know eventually I want to jog and be good at it but for now I realise my limitations in that area and will wait till im alot slimmer before I force myself on the world of joggers. well wanted to do a quick post I always find it keeps my mind set into ww if i keep posting hence i post ALOT, if i forget to read the posts on ww board, or forget to post here I kinda seem to forget to point and track and lose weight.Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-3471075747821050652009-04-30T01:01:00.000-07:002009-04-30T01:08:37.909-07:00wi week 7How pants am I? week 7 and only lost 12 pounds overall, Today is showing a loss of <span style="font-size:180%;">2 pounds</span> I dont know how though I havent really followed the plan at all, I did have totm last week so I think its just that going, so I am guessing it was really a sts which is coool! I guess I shouldnt be too disheartened I have still lost but omg so slow , then again it is a healthy weight loss at 2 pounds a week on average LOL. Well had a bad few weeks to be honest and I am struggling big time but today i am going to try yet again to keep within my points and eat healthy food wait did I say try I meant I WILL. I also want to join a gym I just have this over whelming urge to do so, so I will prob walk down to the gym round the corner later and sign up again.<br />Well for now just a quick post to keep it real and get me back into the ww thing, off to go finish off our project and get an A (hehe we hope)Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-42243092419272767782009-04-26T02:15:00.000-07:002009-04-26T02:23:11.230-07:00Struggling!well dammit that sneaky peek really did throw me, or was it the 10 pound gain LOL, anyway had another sneaky peek today and its spurred me to get back on it, things are not as bad as they seem, I am still on track for losing my first stone in the next couple of weeks. I have 5 weeks until my first proper placement I am going to aim to have lost my first stone by then, all I need to do is get my finger out and get back on the wagon and this will be possible.....so I am officially saying to the word right now, I AM BACK ON THE WAGON FROM TODAY I WILL STICK TO MY POINTS AND I WILL LOSE THIS WEIGHT!.<br />there said it and in caps so you could all hear me LOL, so today I am going to get right back to basics pretend its week 1 and just stick within my points. <br />I was doing some uni work today and started to make me think, I dont want to be this big any more, I want to be a size 16 nurse! and I am going to get what I want because this is my time! so nerr to you low self image you cant bring me down because I WILL WIN!Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-25898122156609235502009-04-24T04:02:00.000-07:002009-04-24T04:16:32.391-07:00just been for a walkwell last day of the dog from hell today and thought id take her for a walk, i kinda feel bad now cos shes actually rather cute, just dont want her living with me LOL. Anyway we enjoyed our walk together and fed the swans and just ambled along by the water, it was a lovely day. I got to thinking, I have been feeling really down this last week, and the dog didnt help really as a consequence my weight loss went by the wayside a bit, i had 3 days where i didnt follow it at all. I had the little voice inside saying "you only lost 10 pounds how rubbish are you...you may as well give up now it will take forever to lose weight" well you know what that little voice isnt going to win, cos I am 10 pounds down only 4 to go for my first stone, ive had a week of being really ill followed by a week of stress at going back to uni after the holiday, and having a dog in my house, no wonder i am struggling. I can see where my pattern is though, something will throw me off routine and I go to pot, on wednesday I went in uni and because I didnt have much food in the house I couldnt take sandwiches, so had some soup at uni but got home starving still with no food in teh house, so we got a KFC, and it snowballed from there. I need to start getting ME sorted first, making sure the night before I do have food for the next day and I wont go hungry and then eat easy high fat food.<br />Anyway I am back to pointing today and though i dont have any mojo but i am just going through the motions anyway and I know my mojo will come, I am also aware this week I may gain again, but I will do everything I can to try and not let that happen. I am under a bit of pressure at the moment with uni, i have a presentation on monday but it isnt graded, then i have a presentation in 3 weeks which will be graded, i just feel like nothing is coming together on top of that i have to start to fill in my portfolio for the first time, scary stuff!Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-69945986367308188832009-04-23T06:45:00.000-07:002009-04-23T06:54:42.759-07:00weigh in day and demon dogswell its been an odd week, I have had two very bad days, and today isnt going any better either. I stood on the scales and put on 10 pounds!!! I mean wtf?? no way can anyone put 10 pounds on in a week! its just ludricrous<br />I am guessing last weeks weight loss was a bit false to say the least!!!!! so Im going to call it a 2 pound gain which sounds about right and ignore the fact last week existed. I need to get some shopping into the house which is proving to be hard at the moment, not physically but mentally.<br />I have the demon dog from hell and shes just getting me down so much, she really is lucky she is still alive. Shes just so spoilt and gross and ..and ..and, I cant eat cos she makes me feel sick, the cats are living under the bed and on top of the fridge, and to top it all I have to share my bed with it or I get no sleep from the whining and scratching she makes, which belive me is loud at 2 am. Anyway shes going back tomrorow thank god! and then a change of sheets and back to normal, I could really rant about this dog for ages but I will spare you the hatred I have for it LOL.<br />For now I need to really concentrate on getting me back into the groove and I dont think it will happen until tomorrow when the demon dog has gone. But I will get back on track!Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-48153314196176632482009-04-22T01:19:00.001-07:002009-04-22T01:23:50.936-07:00oh boy sneaky peekswell had a bad day yesterday! i did a sneaky peek in the morning and for some reason I have put on tons of weight, Im not entirely sre how much, i will find out for sure tomorrow. I am guessing because I was ill last week it wasnt an accurate reading, and now I can eat again its just put my body back into sync, but it is also totm as well. Anyway needless to say went off the rails a bit yesterday, and I wont even start to point it, because I think it would be impossible to do so. Then at night got invited to a friends for a bbq which was mega yummy. So today back on track and pointing again. I need to badly go shopping tonight, both me and the cats are low on food.<br />I have my mums dog here with me this week too, shes the most spoilt dog you have ever seen, and to be honest I cant wait for her to go back on friday, then me and my cats can get back our little routine - I really dont do good when my routine is out of sync!Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-71621457799010280202009-04-18T11:51:00.000-07:002009-04-18T11:54:49.442-07:00dumplings!Well very quick post to say about my dumpling experience, I thought it was worth blogging about. Tonight I had a chicken stew with lots of veg and potatoes, in the freezer we have some aunt bessies dumplings. Well pointed one and it was 4 points - I had tons left so thought i will treat myself. Well I love dumplings! they are just major yummy squishy stodgy just yummy. So i popped one in for me and a couple for me son. Dished up dinner and went to dive into my dumpling and it was rock hard LOL. Now normally I would crunch my way thought it and not really ejoy it at all, but today I CHUCKED IT AWAY!!! I was so not going to spend 4 points on a tiny crunchy horrible tasting thing, instead i have pear and banana and ambrosia low fat custard instead! HA much nicer and worth the points!Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-58258843656253231172009-04-17T10:28:00.000-07:002009-04-17T10:36:18.407-07:00Into the groove!well I am feeling much better, started to feel better last night, and managed to eat all day yesterday and as every hour that went by I just bounced back. Feel almost at 100% again and I can now manage rl again...YAY go me!<br />I was so good today, I had to meet some uni mates for a project, and we were meeting in macdonalds! Anyway before I went I drove over to macdonals in my town for some lunch for my kids and I knew we had no food in the house since id been too ill to even shop (now thats defo ill for me) so pondered over getting a macdonalds with the kids - nice juicy big mac i as thinking as I was waiting in the queue. For some reason when it came to ordering I just didnt order me one. Got home and had to rush off pretty fast to meet my friends. Well got there and they were eating macdonalds, and by now my tummy was shouting feed me. So I got a salad, and how yummy was that! it was humungous, (ok could have been more chicken) but I pointed it as 2.5 points for the chicken, rest was just salad and had no sauce. So I survived macdonalds not once today but twice! how cool is that, I dont even feel like I am missing out because I did have food from macdonalds! HA well tongiht some nice fish and chips home made and a yummy bread roll for a chip butty - got tons of points left so thought why not. I am so in the zone right now and its just onwards and downwards from now on, I would be silly to not keep this up, I really can have anyhting I want!Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-28932469773456565012009-04-16T01:43:00.000-07:002009-04-16T01:52:34.089-07:00wi week 5well still not feeling too good, I just wish this thing would go away now, well I dont know if to be happy or what by this weight loss this week, I lost an anazing <span style="font-size:180%;">8 pounds!, </span><span style="font-size:100%;">I was a bit surprised to say the least. It has got me to 1 stone 6 pound loss now and I got a 5% star on my weight tracker and another 11.5 pounds to my 10% .</span><br /><span style="font-size:100%;">I think it has alot to do with me being sick and i just wasnt able to eat all my points, it was literally get what you can down that had the least fat in it so my tummy didnt have too much pain. I have not managed to do any exercise since saturday and to be honest I am just getting fed up with being sick now, I just want to get back into my routine and eat nice food and bounce about on the wii fit. I think tongiht I will leave any treats for another night LOL, my treat will probably be 0 point jelly at the best!</span>Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-70713477201982159442009-04-13T16:14:00.000-07:002009-04-13T16:21:06.569-07:00a late night post and a SPwell had a day of feeling major rough, i think it might be my gall stones but im not sure - my tummy feels so uncomfy and I have a constant dull ache - i know its not totm cos its not due yet - so not sure what to make of it yet, but I think a trip to the docs is in order. Everytime I eat it gets worse, great for losing weight but not for using up points, managed to get some food in me and saved the last four points to cover the blip over the weekend has all gone now, Im now caught up to the points for the week.<br />Well was a bit naughty today, I knew I wouldnt be able to resist all week and I had a sneaky peek! Its showing a loss so far!! but not going to report anything until my official weigh in as my weight does fluctuate lots.<br />I think off to bed and maybe a hot water bottle on my tummy. next stop weigh in day!Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-5433824609827629522009-04-12T06:09:00.001-07:002009-04-12T06:22:20.739-07:00changes n stuffI noticed today I eat more slowly, I savour every single taste. It may be because I only have my 3 meals a day with fruit in between, dont get me wrong i am never hungry but I do appreciate the taste of food. Its a nice change really, before I would stuff it all in and not really even think about the fact I was eating, it was just something to do! I hope this is the start of a new way of life and I feel it was a key factor in my eating habits.Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-25294172975271771112009-04-11T01:30:00.001-07:002009-04-11T01:37:10.497-07:00i want my 1 stone loss next weekThere I have said it wrote it down and I want it!, I need to lose 2 pounds to get to my first stone, and I want that first stone gone so badly. I am well back on track again, have made up 1.5 points of my little blip the other night and got my milk and had my porridge, so all is good in the world again LOL.<br />I had to buy a sports bra, I ordered it online and it cost a fortune 28 quid! I hope it fits or I will be a bit miffed. I was jogging yesterday on the wii fit and my boobs were hurting so I definately need one, hopefully it will hold me still. I am still loving the wii fit and the more games I unlock the bettter it gets, although I am getting a bit worried, I hope there is many levels to unlock so I dont get bored too quickly!<br />So here goes next week and my 2 pound loss for my first stone! I WILL DO ITHayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-67013391626158933602009-04-10T10:06:00.000-07:002009-04-11T01:41:16.784-07:00found my mojoIt was hiding in morrisons under the fruit and veg stall. I woke up today went to the fridge there was NO MILK! my yuongest son walks by says "oh yeah thats cos i had hot choclate last night made from milk". Well still felt really sick Im sure that chinese was dodgy , anyway i didnt have much breakfast food in the house, because I r usualy haveporridge, might be a major flaw in the plan if I have no milk! so toast it was ...then later for lunch i peeked into the fridge which was looking kinda bare, there was a ww pasta thing and ww pasta sauce and then I also devoured 2 packets of ww crisps ..oh well ho hum! - by now feeling I like saying *beep* it im gonna pig out, luckily I didnt realy have much food left in the house LOL so had to go shopping. Icame back with the yummiest low fat food EVER tons of fruit and my mojo!!! - so I'm still in points today even got 5 left over after dinner, going to save 2 for the urmm mistake yesterday and prob have some strawberrys and elmlea light later!<br />oh oh i also had a curry tonight - it was fabba i had half a veg curry for 2 points and half a chicken jalfezi for 3.5 points and pilau rice for 3 points and a naan bread for 3.5 a feast i tell ya all for 12 points! so had my treat at last LOLHayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5238669364669257452.post-10555095187188137482009-04-09T13:54:00.000-07:002009-04-09T14:07:05.779-07:00really bingey nightWell had a pretty bad night I think I will go and log it all soon to face up to how far over I went. I treated myself to a chinese all pointed, but it made me feel sick! - I just didnt enjoy it at all (pinches myself) and I just think I will not even start to call that a treat from now on, it was major rank! Anyway it led me to have a mini food eat - i ate 3 packets of iced gems, they are 1.5 points each so 4.5 there, 2 light chocolate mousses at 1 point each so 2 points there and some prawn crackers well full bag is 5 points but i probably ate half a bag so 3 points there and 2 sweet and sour chicken balls I would hazard a guess at 3 points. So in all I had 3.5 points left over from chinese for the day anyway so I have about 9 points over in full Not bad!!<br />I could feel myself slipping and even posted earlier I wasnt going to let it happen, but you know what, I am not going to beat myself up over it. I think it was the fact my "treat" made me feel sick and I felt I needed a treat. Anyway 9 points isnt bad, but I am going to draw a line under it and not try tooooo hard to claw it back, because to be honest I think my exercise will cover it, however having said that if I can claw back the points then I will but like I said not my number one priority. So there we go no more chinese for me! I think next week I need dumplings so yummy ww meal here i come rofl im craving for them badly hahaha!Hayleys journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09345638578942013500noreply@blogger.com0